All our lives, we have been building ourselves, correcting ourselves, polishing ourselves so that we become a better person as time passes by. We learn so much from the people around us. We try to gain the knowledge from their own experiences. We get so many lessons from our own lives. We tend to mend ourselves by correcting ourselves to become a better version of us. We see us in the future being that perfect person. Everything goes smoothly in life. You will have friends come and go in our lives. Even friends play a trivial role in your life for making you a better person, and yes of course only if you know what is right and wrong. But then again, whether you do something right or wrong, what matters is what you did with it when you realised what you were doing is wrong.
You get married. You have a person in your life. with whom you share your life with. You might have had a bad past with your ex. They might have broken your heart, or you would have broken theirs. You would want to apply your experience with your partner. But then you realise, every person is different and you do not want to publish that person because of someone else who did give you a bad past. You then move on in life with your current partner. And if you love that person, you start becoming a totally different person. You do anything for them. You change yourself. You become their aura. You sacrifice so much for them to make their life a better place. You wipe their tears even before it comes into their eyes. You do whatever it takes to keep them happy. You feel its your motto of life. And yes. it makes you happy all along. You tend to see the small small things which makes your partner happy. All the learning that you had, you'll put them to test. You just forget yourself and you try to be an elf in their life. Even without them knowing, you so the things which will make them happy. And yes.. the happiness on their face is the most ultimate gift which you can receive.
You then look forward for the future. Start building dreams. You build your own world around you. You keep your circle close so that you don't get distracted. You trust your partner blindly. Because you cannot even imagine them going against you. How can you go against you. That would be your thought. Blind trust; something which only a child is capable of exhibiting. You pick up a child, you throw them in the air, they would laugh out loud while coming down. Thats only because they trust you blindly. They know you'll catch them. They believe that you would catch them. When one shows this kind of trust in their marriage, I dont think anyone can hope for anything more from that person. You break all boundaries for them. You go against the society rules on how a partner should be treated. You know the society rules are just bunch of rules set by some ignorant small minded people. You treat your partner the way you want, which you know will keep them happy. Well.. isnt that why all get married? to be happy :)
You'll have your ups and downs in life. But then thats how you sail in the ocean of life. The waves keep crashing onto your life. But you hold strong. You have been strong. Thats what you've been building yourself to be. To stay strong, even in the strongest storm. You take your time to pacify yourself, and your partner. You be there for them. Not every day is a sunny day. Rough times are the times when your life is being tested. But then you cannot do anything about the storm. They are not in your control. But then, the fearless you, sail through it without much problems. And you move ahead with your journey with whatever is left of the boat. Then you rebuild the boat, patch up the broken parts, and continue your journey. For most of the troubled times, you stay ignorant. Not because you cannot face it, but because you know that, those times are just temporary and it wont last soon. You'll have bad times, but that'll always wake you up to the good stuffs that you were paying attention to.
And then a day comes when you cannot be ignorant anymore. Your eyes are forcefully opened. The world you built, comes crashing down like the house built by pack of cards made of glass. You hear them shatter. Each card was the foundation that made you, you. You hear them crash one by one. You can feel the pain as they crash down on you. All your beliefs, trust, unconditional love, all becomes questionable. You start questioning them. You start questioning yourself. You hear voices "I told you so" from every direction. But deep inside you know it wasnt like that. You do not want to question your belief. But you are forced to. You cry deep inside. No one around you can feel the storm inside you. You want to end it. But then you know, thats not who you are. You are not a coward. You are brave. This is not the end. But then you think of the time and effort you put in that person, and you start questioning everything again. You go back and forth with those thoughts. Finally you realise that you have to face it. You have to face the reality of what is happening. You need to stay strong. Because, that is the only option that is left with you. You close your eyes to sleep, but you cannot sleep. You lie there for hours, and your brain shows you the flashback. You can feel the brain making fun of you. You can feel the brain laugh at you for being such an ignorant prick. Little does the brain know you. Only you know what you did and why you did. You just smile back by putting your head down. Not in shame, but knowing no one will every understand the unconditional love that you had.
Once your eyes are opened, it becomes all the difficult and impossible to close it. You start to question everything that is happening. You can feel the damage inside you. You want to repair it. But you cannot. Everything starts to harden. Your brain, your heart. You become emotionally disconnected. You now just have a memory of storm even though they are inside you right now. But you have become so immune to it that you cannot even feel it. The world around you has opened. Now so many people around you can see you. They start questioning you, mocking you, telling you how big of a fool you are. But you stay silent, listen to everything they say. You don't react. You stay calm. Because, no one will every understand the path you took.
Now you're fighting inner demons. You now stop sailing and look back, only to realise that you're a long way from the old you. You sit there, wanting to go back to the old you. But you have scars on your back, which isnt letting you to back. How much ever you try, you cannot go back. You can see how damaged you are now. You have so many issues. You have lost belief. You lost faith in love. You dont trust anyone. You stay alert when anyone comes to talk to you. You have trust issues with everyone. Deep inside you know that's not you. But then the scars remind you of your sailing experience. You are not the same person anymore. You are so damaged from the inside that it seems impossible for you to recover from it. But then, you are a strong person. You stay strong. Even with such damage, you will be able to sail.
Now its the wait that bothers you. You have no direction. You have no goal. You are just numb deep inside. Once you were so ambitious and now you see yourself and you feel like a pathetic loser in life. Well, like someone said, its just a bad day, not a bad life. In that hope we wait.
You get married. You have a person in your life. with whom you share your life with. You might have had a bad past with your ex. They might have broken your heart, or you would have broken theirs. You would want to apply your experience with your partner. But then you realise, every person is different and you do not want to publish that person because of someone else who did give you a bad past. You then move on in life with your current partner. And if you love that person, you start becoming a totally different person. You do anything for them. You change yourself. You become their aura. You sacrifice so much for them to make their life a better place. You wipe their tears even before it comes into their eyes. You do whatever it takes to keep them happy. You feel its your motto of life. And yes. it makes you happy all along. You tend to see the small small things which makes your partner happy. All the learning that you had, you'll put them to test. You just forget yourself and you try to be an elf in their life. Even without them knowing, you so the things which will make them happy. And yes.. the happiness on their face is the most ultimate gift which you can receive.
You then look forward for the future. Start building dreams. You build your own world around you. You keep your circle close so that you don't get distracted. You trust your partner blindly. Because you cannot even imagine them going against you. How can you go against you. That would be your thought. Blind trust; something which only a child is capable of exhibiting. You pick up a child, you throw them in the air, they would laugh out loud while coming down. Thats only because they trust you blindly. They know you'll catch them. They believe that you would catch them. When one shows this kind of trust in their marriage, I dont think anyone can hope for anything more from that person. You break all boundaries for them. You go against the society rules on how a partner should be treated. You know the society rules are just bunch of rules set by some ignorant small minded people. You treat your partner the way you want, which you know will keep them happy. Well.. isnt that why all get married? to be happy :)
You'll have your ups and downs in life. But then thats how you sail in the ocean of life. The waves keep crashing onto your life. But you hold strong. You have been strong. Thats what you've been building yourself to be. To stay strong, even in the strongest storm. You take your time to pacify yourself, and your partner. You be there for them. Not every day is a sunny day. Rough times are the times when your life is being tested. But then you cannot do anything about the storm. They are not in your control. But then, the fearless you, sail through it without much problems. And you move ahead with your journey with whatever is left of the boat. Then you rebuild the boat, patch up the broken parts, and continue your journey. For most of the troubled times, you stay ignorant. Not because you cannot face it, but because you know that, those times are just temporary and it wont last soon. You'll have bad times, but that'll always wake you up to the good stuffs that you were paying attention to.
And then a day comes when you cannot be ignorant anymore. Your eyes are forcefully opened. The world you built, comes crashing down like the house built by pack of cards made of glass. You hear them shatter. Each card was the foundation that made you, you. You hear them crash one by one. You can feel the pain as they crash down on you. All your beliefs, trust, unconditional love, all becomes questionable. You start questioning them. You start questioning yourself. You hear voices "I told you so" from every direction. But deep inside you know it wasnt like that. You do not want to question your belief. But you are forced to. You cry deep inside. No one around you can feel the storm inside you. You want to end it. But then you know, thats not who you are. You are not a coward. You are brave. This is not the end. But then you think of the time and effort you put in that person, and you start questioning everything again. You go back and forth with those thoughts. Finally you realise that you have to face it. You have to face the reality of what is happening. You need to stay strong. Because, that is the only option that is left with you. You close your eyes to sleep, but you cannot sleep. You lie there for hours, and your brain shows you the flashback. You can feel the brain making fun of you. You can feel the brain laugh at you for being such an ignorant prick. Little does the brain know you. Only you know what you did and why you did. You just smile back by putting your head down. Not in shame, but knowing no one will every understand the unconditional love that you had.
Once your eyes are opened, it becomes all the difficult and impossible to close it. You start to question everything that is happening. You can feel the damage inside you. You want to repair it. But you cannot. Everything starts to harden. Your brain, your heart. You become emotionally disconnected. You now just have a memory of storm even though they are inside you right now. But you have become so immune to it that you cannot even feel it. The world around you has opened. Now so many people around you can see you. They start questioning you, mocking you, telling you how big of a fool you are. But you stay silent, listen to everything they say. You don't react. You stay calm. Because, no one will every understand the path you took.
Now you're fighting inner demons. You now stop sailing and look back, only to realise that you're a long way from the old you. You sit there, wanting to go back to the old you. But you have scars on your back, which isnt letting you to back. How much ever you try, you cannot go back. You can see how damaged you are now. You have so many issues. You have lost belief. You lost faith in love. You dont trust anyone. You stay alert when anyone comes to talk to you. You have trust issues with everyone. Deep inside you know that's not you. But then the scars remind you of your sailing experience. You are not the same person anymore. You are so damaged from the inside that it seems impossible for you to recover from it. But then, you are a strong person. You stay strong. Even with such damage, you will be able to sail.
Now its the wait that bothers you. You have no direction. You have no goal. You are just numb deep inside. Once you were so ambitious and now you see yourself and you feel like a pathetic loser in life. Well, like someone said, its just a bad day, not a bad life. In that hope we wait.
